I guess that this is just how things work and that I need to accept that.

So I suppose I've given anyone reading,(though I really doubt anyone is reading my blog quite yet) the impression that I'm the sort of person that really doesn't care.
Hella wrong.

I care about some things too much...My current topic of rant: My relationship with my boyfriend...
I just cannot bring myself to get over his beautiful ex girlfriends...And I mean these girls are so hot that I'd probably turn lesbian for them myself. :|...Bit of an exaggeration there. As I'm 100%...(Or atleast 99%) Straight. But you get my point. Smoking hot sexy exes. Particularly one.
Let's call her "Reason I hate myself"...Rihm for short I guess.

So Rihm is the prettier of the two exes whom I know of. She is just...Beyond belief in looks. And I just can't stop beating myself up over that. I can't look like her. I can't be as pretty as her and it just sucks. I feel like he's settling and I hate it...You wonder how someone can just go on after dating someone so damn hot, you know? How they can settle for someone so much LESS hot. (Like me. v.v...)

Anyways, Bitchface is the other ex. I haven't seen trouble from her in a few days...Mostly because my boyfriend blocked her from facebook. She was after him so damn hard. Luckily he was fine in ignoring her. My concern about her has slipped away over the past few days...

So right here, right now. I am vowing to do everything in my power to become as beautiful as I possibly can. I don't care if me and my boyfriend have to breakup while I make the transition, I will come back to him a confident, self-loving, gorgeous girl.

That is my promise to myself. I'm hoping my friends will hold me to it as well.

People I love right now:
H.H.(My lovely female friend who is always there to listen to me cry like fucking weirdo <3 I love you.)
Danimals
My boyfriend.


People who are pissing me off right now:
Rihm
My boyfriend.
Teddybear(A real person, not an actual bear. But that's just how I refer to him...)


Ttyl. I'll be working  on my terrible self esteem issues. <3