What the hell is going on?

So of course, things are going wrong again...
Me and B sort of made up earlier and whatnot.
Things were a little weird still, but trying to make things less awkward, I typed up a list of random questions for him to answer. One he didn't want to answer...Of course, being the naturally retarded and curious young bitch girl I am...I tried to get him to tell me. He refuses. Not in the polite, "No thanks, don't really wanna..." Way. I mean flatout -won't- tell me. No matter how much I beg.

I pointed out that I don't keep things from him. He pointed out my blog. I tried to get him to look at my blog, saying I didn't want to keep it from him anyways...He won't even look at it, actually.
Even when I tell him I won't try to get him to tell me what he's not telling me after he looks at my blog.

Grr. How frustrating. I'm a very honest person...I keep little if anything at all from my boyfriends.
The blog has been making me feel guilty-guilt-guilt actually. :<

Honestly though, it is his business. If he wants his thoughts to remain to himself, it's not my place to force them out of him. I love him enough to know that. And right now he's sure we're going to breakup because he won't tell me. I love him so damn much. Silly boy. I wish he'd just see that and realize that I'm not a crazy shemonster who will dump him just because he wants to keep his thoughts to himself...

I really hope I'm not that horrible.

~A♥

I guess that this is just how things work and that I need to accept that.

So I suppose I've given anyone reading,(though I really doubt anyone is reading my blog quite yet) the impression that I'm the sort of person that really doesn't care.
Hella wrong.

I care about some things too much...My current topic of rant: My relationship with my boyfriend...
I just cannot bring myself to get over his beautiful ex girlfriends...And I mean these girls are so hot that I'd probably turn lesbian for them myself. :|...Bit of an exaggeration there. As I'm 100%...(Or atleast 99%) Straight. But you get my point. Smoking hot sexy exes. Particularly one.
Let's call her "Reason I hate myself"...Rihm for short I guess.

So Rihm is the prettier of the two exes whom I know of. She is just...Beyond belief in looks. And I just can't stop beating myself up over that. I can't look like her. I can't be as pretty as her and it just sucks. I feel like he's settling and I hate it...You wonder how someone can just go on after dating someone so damn hot, you know? How they can settle for someone so much LESS hot. (Like me. v.v...)

Anyways, Bitchface is the other ex. I haven't seen trouble from her in a few days...Mostly because my boyfriend blocked her from facebook. She was after him so damn hard. Luckily he was fine in ignoring her. My concern about her has slipped away over the past few days...

So right here, right now. I am vowing to do everything in my power to become as beautiful as I possibly can. I don't care if me and my boyfriend have to breakup while I make the transition, I will come back to him a confident, self-loving, gorgeous girl.

That is my promise to myself. I'm hoping my friends will hold me to it as well.

People I love right now:
H.H.(My lovely female friend who is always there to listen to me cry like fucking weirdo <3 I love you.)
Danimals
My boyfriend.


People who are pissing me off right now:
Rihm
My boyfriend.
Teddybear(A real person, not an actual bear. But that's just how I refer to him...)


Ttyl. I'll be working  on my terrible self esteem issues. <3

Le first post

So I'm one of those people you either love or hate right off the bat.

I've never had anyone be inbetween about me.
Hopefully, it'll be the former rather than the latter for the most of you.

As my description says, I'm a 15 year old girl. Obsessed with WoW and her internet boyfriend--Come at me bro. I have an internet boyfriend. :P He's awesome and that's all that matters--
I like Meme's, and anything internet-y. ._.
I also really like reading and writing and drawing in photoshop.

I'm not going to be all, "I'd really like to get to know some of you!! COMMENTS PLOX OMAGHOD."
No. That reeks of desperacy.
Would it be a huge ego-stroke-fest if I got comments and followers? You bet your ass it would be. But maybe I'm not looking for that.
Maybe I'm just looking for a place to put everything out there without having to be judged and shit by people...

Because really who would you be judging? A paragraph of text? You don't know who I am. That's the cool part about this honestly. The complete and utter safety...

Anyways. Now that my little emofest^ up there is over. I'm gonna turn to a happier note...
Today is my one month anv. (Well, it was...Yesterday technically, but I'm still up from yeterday being that I slept the entire time...) With my boyfriend, B.(B for boo. B for his first letter of his name. Either or. I'll develope a better nickname for him later) We're both really happy...We met on WoW, yes. But he really helped to get me off of a guy who was abusive to me emotionally. And somewhere along the way of that, I fell in love with him...

Yeah. Corny. Nerds falling in love on a game designed around medieval magic and killing non-existant beasts...But hey. It'll be a cute story someday. :)

Well, that's my daily entry. I highlighted the key points. So if you're not wanting to read a few paragraphs...It'll be easy to skim. Lmfao.
Laters.